INTERESTING…
I recently recieved an email from anonymous person who follows my blog…This person had TONS of questions for me about ME…At first I found it a little odd – but decided to respond to their email and provide answers to the questions they had!
I have decided to paste their email and my response in this entry in the event that anyone else out there may have similar questions…
And do feel free to email me if ever you have questions of your own…I only ask that you let me know who you are if you opt to EMAIL me personally as opposed to making a comment on my blog.
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Dear Krista,
It is really interesting reading you blog. Certain things in your life matters to you because they are important to you. You have learned to think that things are important. Would you consider to start the process of un-learning…
Why you practice yoga? What you want to accomplish with the practice? I read your resume, yoga – pilates – yoga… and more yoga, you are now in Mysore, to learn new poses?, improve the ones you already know?… practice with Guru?.. Why?
Because you do all these things you must be expecting something? What do you looking for?
Namaste
PS.
Your picture (on contact page) is very nice (you are beautiful) but somehow “out of place”. It is probably taken for some other purpose – other then your yoga-web site.
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Dear …..,
I hope this email finds you well! Hum, glad to hear that you are enjoying reading my blog – I must say you seem to find a peculiar interest in my life! However, I am happy to answer your questions. Yes, certain things in my life do matter to me, because they are important to me! I must admit I am a little confused by your comment “you have learned to think that things are important” – most definitely, I THINK some things are very important (but not quite sure what things you are referring to – or perhaps you mean anything I think that is important?) “Would you consider to start the process of un-learning” – well, I think I have in quite astounding ways…But to be so philosophical is a little presumptuous on your part – as you don’t know me – you read my blog and yes I share a good deal through my writing – but it’s not a representation of all of me – or even me at all! Why I practice yoga! What I want to accomplish with the practice! Why in Mysore! Hum….I practice yoga b/c it ‘feels right’ in every imaginable way…It feels natural to me…Since the day I found this practice my life has changed completely – all in wonderful ways. This practice has helped and continues to help me better understand myself, my purpose, everything in this world! It has allowed me to delve into parts of my past I was always too scared to face – allowed me to face everyday fears head on – allowed me to accept the things I can’t change, and change the things I can – allowed me to slow down a bit and try to focus on the present – allowed me to appreciate things so much more – allowed me to let go of a great deal of hesitation, doubt, judgment….And by “ALLOW” I mean this daily practice has instilled so much in me and helped me to grow – the discipline of the practice, the fears of the practice, the struggles of the practice – literally every aspect of this practice has affected every aspect of my life!! What do I “want” to “accomplish”???? Well, nothing! I want to be present everyday and just do – this practice has truly taught me that if I practice – then all will come – and it’s true….All – literally – everything has, does, and will come – no need to question or hope…By doing this practice the things I need in my life better fall into place…Answers I’ve searched my entire life to find simply appear…Emotions I’ve stored deep within my being surface and are dealt with in a healthy manner. My body has grown and will stay healthy and free of pain and disease.
Why in Mysore? That question is very simple to answer: Because it is where I am supposed to be at this moment in my life. The pilgrimage here called to me – I didn’t seek it…It was a seed in my mind that continued to grow…Something that began when I did my first practice a few years ago…Something that had a tiny voice back then and through the years grew louder with each passing day. Why, why, why….There is no real answer to your question…It is meant to be this way…I am meant to be here. When I finally decided to go to India I didn’t know what for – how long – what it’d be like – how I’d like it…I made the decision a long time ago to let go of any and all expectations regarding India, my trip, my yoga practice….I just knew that I was destined to come to India and study with Guruji and Sharath…I didn’t know WHY but I knew I was supposed to. And being here – well it’s pretty much the same…I still have no expectations of my practice, my time here, anything….I just get up each day and live my life…Which has changed drastically in the last six months for sure…But all the changes that have occurred have happened naturally – no force, no expectations. Things have called out to me – and my only choice was to follow and see where that path would lead – or not to follow and remain stagnant in the same spot I occupied…By nature I always like to explore, try new things, venture out….So that’s what I’ve done and all has worked out just fine. I’ve learned so many new things, had a great many new experiences, grown into a newer version of myself….So, you ask: “I read your resume, yoga – Pilates – yoga… and more yoga, you are now in Mysore, to learn new poses?, improve the ones you already know?… practice with Guru?.. Why?” Truthfully – there is no why…I have followed my heart my entire life and this is where it has led me! Why yoga, Pilates, yoga, yoga, yoga…I enjoy Pilates and love to teach it – I have come to learn that yoga is SIMPLY A PART OF WHO I AM…I breath it, smell it, taste it! That’s why I do! And while I have learned new poses and improved on ones I already now since arriving in Mysore – that is not why I came – that should not be a reason for anyone to come – WHY? Because that would create expectation…And with expectation only comes disappointment. I can say that I did come to Mysore to practice with Guruji – most definitely! Why? Because it was something I was meant to do! Why – that is a question for a being far greater than me to explain!
So, I do hope that this explanation has answered one of your last questions: “Because you do all these things you must be expecting something? What do you looking for?”
Simply because I do these things does not mean I expect something…Actually quite the contrary – because I do all these things I have learned that it is futile to expect things in life… “These things” have taught me to have more trust in myself and the universe – taught me to trust and to open my heart and my mind and allow things to happen as they as supposed to! That is all I do – that which calls me is what I do – and it has never steered me astray! I expect nothing – I look for nothing…I am simply alive in this moment – living my dreams awake!
Your final question about my picture: NO, it is not at all yoga related – but then my attire should give that away…It is a picture with great meaning behind it! Back in the states I do a lot of work to help charities that hold special places in my heart – Breast Cancer, Aids research, St. Jude’s Children’s hospital…That picture was from an Aids research event! Fond memories from home of things that I hold dear – helping others – and no there is no expectation from doing such things – simply do b/c I know I am supposed to!
So, my turn for a question: Do I know you from someplace, or are you simply a person following my blog who has taken great interest in me? Om Shanti,
Krista